The title is just a reflection of my love of all things Star Wars and really has nothing to do with the actual post.

I will be traveling for the next two months and have decided to really buckle down and blog about things on my travels. I will talk about my workouts, work and more then likely the countryside I am traveling through.

I’ll also post up pics and maybe some videos of things while I’m out in west Texas. So check back here starting on Sunday to keep track of things.

I love how everyone on the left are now jumping up and down and screaming for joy for all these “social” issues that Obama has all of a sudden had an epiphany on. When it comes to gay marriage and letting illegal kids that have followed the law get immunity (but not applied for citizenship for some strange reason) as if he is all of a sudden taking this monumental stand against the tyranny of the right. 

While I agree the GOP has done nothing but revert to a great imitation of what Southern Democrats looked like from the early 1800’s through the late 60’s (if you are a teacher or a student of history you know what I am talking about) when it comes to these issues (and yes I lean towards the GOP on many things fiscally, but break with the party on social issues) I find it even harder for people that are normally highly intelligent to be reduced to giddy cheerleaders for possibly the slickest politician to ever get elected since well John Quincy Adams. 

To quote a friend of mine, “he and his partner will not be voting for Obama this November simply because he all of a sudden quit evolving on the issue of gay marriage and has come out for it. To many in the LGBT community are jumping on a band wagon simply because they think he will actually do something. To me he is parading us around like a prized pony and i will not take it.” 

And now I am off my soap box. If you simply want to call me names go for it and if you want to lay out the democratic talking points for these things go for it. If you want to thump your bible at me over my support of gay marriage go for it. I am a big boy and can take it. Heck if you make a good point then I will answer it that too.

Hmmm seems I keep falling off the band wagon when it comes to my blogging, but I am thinking that it maybe time to get back on the horse and really blog for a change.  From bodybuilding to politics to everyday life.  Time to get my blog moving again.

Well it has been a little while since I actually just wrote a normal blog.  So here it goes and hopefully you like it.

It seems that people always forget the most important things in life.  Lord knows I have forgotten it many times over the last 2 years.  I am of course talking about family and friends, but most importantly I am talking about your spouse.  Sometimes I forget that she is just as invested in our marriage as I am.  I seem to forget that she is just as easily hurt by my inactions as she is by my actions and that this is the number one killer of any relationship.  Lately I have been trying to reconcile my own wants with what is best for our marriage and it seems every time I somehow start to blame her for me not being able to follow my dreams.  I forget that she also wants me to follow my dreams of becoming a pro just as much as I want.

So here I sit trying to figure out how in the world I am going to go about making sure that I take care of the one I love and at the same time invest 100% towards the goal I have set for myself.  I know most people will say hey a 34 year old has no shot at becoming a pro, but they don’t know me very well now do they.  So I guess that I just need to go all in and get this taken care of and by creating the life I want it will help out so she can have the life she wants.  Still working out the finer details of it, but it is coming along.  Also thinking of trying to get a blogging job on the side with a newspaper or something so that I can bring in extra money to help pay for all the groceries and supplements that I have to have to remake myself into a giant.  Guess it is time to talk to some of my friends that do this stuff for a living.

Well hopefully all of you are out there having a pleasant day and remember to thank everyone that has come into your life.

Somedays I just wonder when the light at the end of the tunnel will actually start to get brighter.  I mean I bust my butt at work day in and say out and still can’t get ahead in anything.  Whatever happened to the American dream?  I am wondering if it even exists anymore.  Guess I am going to have to just work a little harder to make a little more money to send Trish to school to get her advanced degree and make our dreams come true.  Another brick to build the house.

Well it has been a while since I last posted, but I thought I would post up the new workout that I am going to be doing going forward.  Also going to be better about writing my blog and will expand it beyond the normal workout talk and training stuff.  Going to try to write more about life and how the world impacts those off us trying to make it into the ranks of the IFBB Pros.

Not much of a title, but it is something I have not thought about for a long time.  Most people think about stuff in terms of what they will have at the end of a search, but not what it actually takes to get there.  I think that is where America has also lost its way in that people want the millions of dollars and they see all the people that have made millions of dollars not doing anything, but a red carpet whore and then bam they become wealthy.

How can someone do it without selling out their own soul.  Well that is what the title is about.  My dad had said the line you cannot begin to build a wall at the end of it and expect anything.  you have to start with the first brick and then move onto the second and so forth.  Well that is where I am at right now.  I have reached a cross roads in that do I forgo my dream of competing and just get into shape or put my nose to the grindstone and make the commitment and do what is needed to make my dreams come true.  Well brick one gets laid down tomorrow and then so on and so forth.  I am going to have my dream come hell or high water.

What is your dream and how are you going to make it come true?

I bye no means try to be mean and insulting, but sometimes stupid just needs to be called stupid.

I adore my wife’s friend, but her “fiance” is number then a stick. I mean open mouth insert foot stupid. They have been staying with us this past week and it has all but killed me not to smack him upside his head.

Had to write this. Peace out.

I was talking with someone today about different problems that people develop while they are growing up. The biggest issue that she said was people’s image of themselves. A friend said the same thing a little earlier on Twitter. So I decided I would think about it and then maybe write something.

I will preface all of this by simply saying I have never had self image or esteem (whichever you prefer to call it) issues. I’ve always had a vain streak and yes I may not be George Clooney (do I owe him royalties for using his name), but I know I am atleast very easy on the eyes as an ex-girlfriends grandmother once said.

Now back to my writing. I have never always tried to understand those with esteem problems and when you cut through all the bs it normally boils down to simply someone or maybe a group of people around them that continually tells them they have weight issues or sorry your not pretty enough. I am no sociologist, but I also know that society is the root cause of what ails most people.

When are we as a society going to finally wake up and see that a size 0 model is actually someone that is just as unhealthy as a size 20 or larger woman. Hmmm maybe we will all finally learn someday, but I’m not going to hold my breath.

Hope everyone has a great weekend.

Sometimes life is rather hard and it plain sucks, but there are other times when you are flying high. Lately though I’ve been on that part of the arc that is on the downward slope and I’m just wondering when it will bottom out and start the upward part of the next curve.

And to answer your questions yes I am economist by degree so I always see things that way. So I know most folks are scratching their head right now with what I’m talking about. I guess I am talking about life in general. I’ve grown tired of seeing my wife cry because she is stressed over money issues.

I know that we are busting our butts day in and day out, but it sure the hell feels like we are just falling farther and farther behind. Hell screw trying to keep up with the Jones’s we are just trying to keep up with the Smith’s. I guess I need to put everything into hyperactive for bodybuilding and get big now.

I know it won’t be over night, but gotta do something.