My soon to be recipe book idea

Well it is Thursday and time for another posting to my blog. By now I’ve rambled about a lot of things that really weren’t bodybuilding related and that will continue just not today.

Today I am going to begin the long and painful process of putting together me off season and precontest recipe book. I will post photos and recipes here on the blog as I try to put together different things that are good for a bodybuilder’s diet, but also good for the normal Joe or Jane in the gym.

Hope everyone has a great day.

Random Musings

I was talking with someone today about different problems that people develop while they are growing up. The biggest issue that she said was people’s image of themselves. A friend said the same thing a little earlier on Twitter. So I decided I would think about it and then maybe write something.

I will preface all of this by simply saying I have never had self image or esteem (whichever you prefer to call it) issues. I’ve always had a vain streak and yes I may not be George Clooney (do I owe him royalties for using his name), but I know I am atleast very easy on the eyes as an ex-girlfriends grandmother once said.

Now back to my writing. I have never always tried to understand those with esteem problems and when you cut through all the bs it normally boils down to simply someone or maybe a group of people around them that continually tells them they have weight issues or sorry your not pretty enough. I am no sociologist, but I also know that society is the root cause of what ails most people.

When are we as a society going to finally wake up and see that a size 0 model is actually someone that is just as unhealthy as a size 20 or larger woman. Hmmm maybe we will all finally learn someday, but I’m not going to hold my breath.

Hope everyone has a great weekend.

Ups and Downs

Sometimes life is rather hard and it plain sucks, but there are other times when you are flying high. Lately though I’ve been on that part of the arc that is on the downward slope and I’m just wondering when it will bottom out and start the upward part of the next curve.

And to answer your questions yes I am economist by degree so I always see things that way. So I know most folks are scratching their head right now with what I’m talking about. I guess I am talking about life in general. I’ve grown tired of seeing my wife cry because she is stressed over money issues.

I know that we are busting our butts day in and day out, but it sure the hell feels like we are just falling farther and farther behind. Hell screw trying to keep up with the Jones’s we are just trying to keep up with the Smith’s. I guess I need to put everything into hyperactive for bodybuilding and get big now.

I know it won’t be over night, but gotta do something.

In the footsteps of greatness

Some people think that greatness comes from vast wealth or how high you have risen in society. Some intermingle greatness with fame.

What is greatness?

What makes a person great?

Truthfully I have no answer for these because how you as an individual measures greatness differs from how I do. Most young people measure it by fame. While older folks measure it by the life you live. I am guilty of the former, but proud that I have come around to the latter.

I was watching the documentary on Lincoln today and it got my political juices running again and I begun to think about why I have not chosen to run yet. Sometimes I blame it on circumstances of a job or I just got married why ruin my marriage, but then I look at all of these and see they are nothing more then excuses.

My political idols are all men you could call great men. Teddy Roosevelt, Washington, Jefferson and of course Lincoln. While all of them are great men for what they did for this country I see Lincoln as the greatest of them for his simple pursuit of keeping the Union together during it’s darkest moment.

He was a man that fully believed in every man, woman and child of this country. Believed that this land was a shining beacon of hope to the rest of the world. I see we have all forgotten what greatness is and unfortunately we are so mired in the politics of hatred and deviseness that this country has fallen into ruin as it did at the darkest period of our history.

Maybe political leaders need a refresher course about this country because they are all leading us down to mediocrity, but continue to do the same old song and dance.

Maybe it is time for the next Lincoln to appear and bring the union back to even higher glory then before.

Days that make you go hmmm

Well today was one of those days. Body was still hurting from back workout so I took an extra day off just to let my body recover, but still feeling good. About to start my new contest diet for the NPC Texas State in October. I think I have a better handle on how it is going to be this time.

That is not the sort that makes you go hmmm. That part is how does one keep their job when you have clustered so many things? Really can’t believe this dude still has a job when he has been nailed to the wall guilty of stupidity and somehow he gets out of it. If it was me I would have been gone a long time ago.

Just wondering how it is so. Well got the VCP books today and will be studying for that certification to better Trish and I’s life. It is a big boost in money so I am jacked about that. But it will also allow me to better peruse my company stuff (I can contract out on my own for it) and also my bodybuilding. So any positive step forward no matter how small it is is a good thing.

I truly never placed a lot of stock in IT certs, but it seems they are back in vogue so if I want to make more money I have to get them and so I shall.

On another front I think I am slowly finding that beast within again. Though it has taken meditation to remind me of that mindset I had back then. But no matter. As long as I can find it and harness it to become the bodybuilder I know I can be is all that matters to me. I need to find some new music cause I am tired of old school rap and metal. I hate pop and hip hop so I have no clue what I am going to start listening to. Been listening to a lot of opera music lately. It is fine, but does have its limitation.

Well time for bed. Hope everyone has a good evening.

The Mowry Group

Well I’ve decided to slowly start building my company back up. The Mowry Group is a one stop consulting company for tax prep, bookkeeping, company design/expansion and social media consulting.

As much as I love doing IT(for now it will still pay the bills) I want to get back to doing what I love and had fun with. So be it an individual or small to medium size company we can assist you. As we begin to expand out we will be of course adding a site, but for now you can email me at mowrygroup@gmail.com. Looking forward to the future and who knows when I gain my IFBB pro card I will start producing dvds and such with the group.

Where is The Hulk?

Why is it that I all of a sudden have fallen into a funk? Maybe it is something in my mind just not kicking in or maybe there is to much on my mind to focus on anyone thing. Whatever it is I am starting to get really pissed off about.

It has been like this for two weeks now. I don’t know what to do any more when it comes to emotions. Sometimes I think I forgot how to feel. I mean I can’t remember the last time I actually broke down and let it all out. Maybe it was when my grandfather died in 2006 was the last time I knew real raw emotion. I felt joy at my wedding and I feel joy everyday when I wake up next to my best friend in the world my darling wife. But I seem to be having a problem finding that pure unadulterated raw energy that used to fuel my workouts.

Back when I did bodybuilding in my early 20’s I had this raw energy that just fueled my workouts with a passion that was just intense. I can’t seem to find that right now. I know it is there, but how do I tap into it? This is going to keep me awake all night. Maybe I should never of taken up meditation. It seems to have calmed the inner beast. My friends call me The Hulk because of the amount of weights I can move now, but they used to call me The Hulk because of the way my eyes would go from blue to deep green when I entered into my place of rage and raw emotion.

Maybe unlike Dr. Banner I have been able to silence the beast within? Maybe I need to find my source of rage again so the Hulk can see the light of day again. I hate that I have no want or drive anymore. Everything used to be about creating a better future, but now it just seems to be about reaching my future safely. I used to believe that if you arrived safely into old age you never lived. Maybe that’s my problem.

Maybe I want to grow old safely instead of crash landing and flaming out. Whatever is wrong with me I need to find the beast again!  I need to feel.that power that comes with him and not be scared to live anymore. I need to find The Hulk!

Who to be angry at?

Sometimes life can hit you with a punch from out of no where.  While I knew that my wife and I would have issues getting pregnant once we received the PCOS diagnosis I did not think that my world would get turned even more upside down.  Despite all the prayers and positive thinking we received the news that without IVF treatments we would not know the joys of parenthood.  I knew in my heart of hearts that this was a serious possibility since my wife is a little older than I am, but I was holding out hope that it would be good news and that we would be able to start trying to have a family immediately.

A morning later I sit here typing this and wonder why is it I am so filled with rage I am ready to ripe down the building I am in around my own head.  having studied psychology in college it is natural to feel something at such devastating news.  My wife has shed many tears over the preceding weeks and last night also.  She has become philosophical and has even brought up the idea of adopting a baby.  While I am happy with that idea it just seems that there should be some kind of emotion I should be feeling other than rage.  I am a well-educated man who has felt the entire spectrum of emotions before.  I cried the moment I saw my wife walking down the aisle towards me last June.  I felt pride in my accomplishments through out my life.  I have felt sadness at the break up of my first marriage (yes I actually did for about a minute and then got on with life).

I simply keep coming back to the fact that I really don’t know how to feel about anything.  Whenever I have become depressed about anything I have always shut down and retreated within myself.  Maybe I am doing that again and just don’t want to admit the pain I feel.  I hate that Trish will never know the feeling of sheer joy at hearing some little person calling her mommy.  At standing there during all the big moments of another person’s life.  I feel like God has taken that from her because of me.  Sometimes I wonder if God is not punishing me for my past.  I know I was never a good person, but I tried.  But I know God never overtly punishes us for things.

Well I am guessing this will allow me to concentrate on my bodybuilding and creating a career for myself out of it (hopefully).

Cardio

Well cardio is always rough when you get back to it after being sick. Unfortunately I don’t have much of a choice. I have to keep dropping bodyfat. The decision has been made to push back my contest debut to October. This will allow me a little more time to burn off more bodyfat in a more controlled manner.

Gotta do stepmill after my workout this afternoon simply because I am playing catch up. So far I have only put on .5lbs this week. Chalking that up to being sick.  Will do 4 days of workouts in a row.

On a personal note I am thinking of looking into that part time teacher program districts have in place. Thinking I would much prefer teaching and what not. IT is slowly becoming boring to me and I am thinking I may want a change.

Hope everyone is having a good day.

The Average Joe

Well that is going to be the name of my weekly blog post here. Not going to say I won’t post other days, but I am thinking on Monday’s or Friday’s I’m going to post up an article about something that is for the 99% of us that may never reach the pros.

If you have ideas send them to me on Twitter or even post up here with some comments. I already have started to write the first article and it will be posted up on Friday. I think Friday’s will be the day I will post the article. Also going to try and maybe get my articles printed somewhere.